Canon AE-1. Kodak Gold 200 (expired, I think).
Since I worked off the pregnancy weight from T2 I’ve bounced around within the same 10lb range for almost a year. I settled into a routine of going to the gym 2-3x/week, starting a diet one week and moving to another a few weeks later. I felt like I was drifting and couldn’t decide if I wanted to give up completely or give it one more push.
In anticipation of my 30th birthday (why does that jump from one decade to the next feel so significant?) I decided to double down and see what I could make myself into. Not one last push to ever lose weight (let’s be realistic here) but one last push to be where I want to be before I tumble into my 30th decade. I’m still working to process my feelings about my body, after so many years of being denied the opportunity to form my own ideas about what my body is and what I can do with it. I started gaining weight as soon as I moved away to college and so it’s been years since I’ve seen myself strong and lean. What will that look like? What will that feel like?
I considered a few different diet plans before I settled on my current program. Read more →