When writing I’ve often found myself butting up against two different states. The first is writer’s block, where fishing anything out of the mental pool. The second is writer’s procrastination. The mind overflows with ideas, yet somehow none are pertinent to the project looming large in the near future.

I’m writing this post in the second state, as I make a final push to finish my application for a 12-week coding bootcamp in San Francisco called Hackbright. I’m going to hit submit, hope for a video interview, hope for a second interview, and then wait impatiently for them to make a decision no later than March 6th. The acceptance rate hovers around 8% so there is a very good chance I’m not going to get in, though I’ve done my damnedest to craft a killer application that conveys the potential I have. When I graduate I’ll apply for full-time work in the Bay Area as a software engineer.

Does this feel like something completely out of left field to those who have followed me for awhile? That’s how it feels for me as well, in a really awesome life-changing dancing-in-my-seat sort of way. I started 2015 feeling like it was going to be not much different than 2014 (not my favorite year on record in relation to personal growth, development, and fulfillment) and I was struggling to cope with that trajectory. We sat down as a married couple and were able to tweak some things in a way that full-time employment outside the home feels like the right path to pursue. The biggest thing holding me back from this was that I didn’t want to start working full-time and then relocate to another state soon afterward. How can I be successful in my given career if I’m following my husband all over the planet while he does his thing? TH is happy where he’s at right now though, and I think we’ve worked out something that will allow both of us to set ambitious career goals and work toward them. There are dozens and dozens of Bay Area companies that I would be thrilled to work for. I think this post needs more exclamation points to communicate how I feel:

!!!!!

One more question to revise. A video to record tomorrow. And then I hit submit and wait anxiously to hear whether my writing and video pitching were enough to help them see how much I want this, how hard I’m going to work, and how much I can bring to their network. I’ll let you know what I know when I know it.

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