Only one post last week? That’s the way I think it might go for the next little while as we gear up for a move across the country and the summer of a lifetime. As of today we have less than 30 days left, and in the next few weeks I need to finish editing my last wedding, shoot and edit three portrait sessions (on my new custom built computer, hoorah!), finish my British Literature online course (only about 1/3 of the way through right now), sell or give away dozens of things, and then pack up and move us to Washington/Utah. And through all of this I’ve got to keep running and lifting and push-upping and watching what I eat so I can continue my weight loss!
We’re starting our 5th week. The fervor is starting to wear off, the initial loss that comes with shocking your system with healthier choices is almost forgotten, and I know from the Facebook group that a lot of people are starting to get frustrated. Unfortunately I think that is a normal part of the process. I’m trying hard to put myself in a mindset that will help me push through. I finally saw the number 155 on the scale again, and I definitely can feel a difference in the way my jeans fit. No more buttoning them up and then stretching them up as high as possible to stuff my muffin top inside.
I’m trying really hard to focus my thoughts on the way I feel, not on what the scale says or how I look. On days where I eat 90% vegetables and very small amounts, I feel awesome. Depending where I am in my menstrual cycle my body seems to need really small amounts of food, and if I overindulge on carbohydrates or fats (cheese mostly) even by a little bit I wake up feeling it down deep in my stomach the next day. I need to keep focusing on how vibrant and alive I feel when I eat and exercise the right way for my body, and not get wrapped up in how slowly I feel like I’m seeing results, otherwise I resort to self-sabotage in some strange attempt at having a pity party for one that does nothing to make me feel better and only sets my progress back yet again.
This week I made my best and worst choices back to back, falling victim to one of my most common mindsets, that making Good Choice X means I can reward myself with Poor Choice Y (I’ve since realized that weight loss doesn’t work that way).
Best nutrition choice of the last week:
Went to book group and the host had set out watermelon, peas, peppers, fresh homemade bread, butter, apples, and caramel dip. I ate the veggies and fruit and successfully avoided the caramel dip and bread/butter. I felt great.
Worst nutrition choice of the last week:
Then I got home and decided I had “earned” the right to eat some bread cheese. I think a little bit would have been okay, but this portion you see here is half the package! I felt sick toward the end (but of course kept eating because it’s delicious and I didn’t want to waste it) and still felt it sitting heavy in my gut the next day.
Bread cheese is a really delicious cheese you can find at Green City Farmer’s Market in Chicago (I’ve seen it in Whole Foods too) that holds it’s shape when grilled/broiled/toasted, becoming crispy on the inside and gooey on the outside. If you can find it, try it. Mmmmmm.